Friday, August 29, 2008

everybody needs a soft filter....

who needs mood elevator drugs when you can have u2??? GOD bless ' saving grace today!!

The more you see the less you know

The less you find out as you go

I knew much more then than I do now

Neon heart day-glow eyes

A city lit by fireflies

They're advertising in the skies

For people like us

And I miss you when you're not around

I'm getting ready to leave the ground

Oh you look so beautiful tonight

In the city of blinding lights

Don't look before you laugh

Look ugly in a photograph

Flash bulbs purple irises

The camera can't see

I've seen you walk unafraid

I've seen you in the clothes you made

Can you see the beauty inside of me?

What happened to the beauty I had inside of me?

And I miss you when you're not around

I'm getting ready to leave the ground

Oh you look so beautiful tonight

In the city of blinding lights


Won't leave me as I am

But time won't take the boy out of this man

Oh you look so beautiful tonight

Oh you look so beautiful tonight

Oh you look so beautiful tonight

In the city of blinding lights

The more you know the less you feel

Some pray for others steal

Blessings are not just for the ones who kneel... luckily

ps: i am sooooo digging these fractal images

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

silver linings

i'm a bit melancholy today because i had another memorial service to attend of a close family friend. "miss margaret" went home to the angels after having a stroke a month or so ago. i've known her and her family forever.....worked with her husband and both her sons, dated one son, and worked with her in our church nursery for many years. she was like a mother to me, and altho i'll miss her, i know she's with GOD and i'll see her again soon! get busy, miss margaret....there's lots of babies in heaven to take care of!!

in the midst of the sadness of the service, tho, there were some bright spots. i hadn't seen my ex (her son!) in nearly 20 years. i walked up to him and said "remember me?" with a smile. he gave me a huge hug and said "i could never forget you girl!!" altho i've run into him once or twice since we broke up, we didn't end on the best of terms, so that tiny moment today gave me a bit of peace about that chapter of my life that i probably didn't know i needed!

also, i knew this whole family except for the oldest child. (she's 10 yrs or so older than i am, so we were never in the same circles) i went to introduce myself to her, and before i could get my name out.....she said "you're sandi! i know who you are. i've heard so much about you for years!!" she could never know how much that meant to me. i love both of her parents so much, and i know they love(d) me, but it's nice to get the affirmation. once reputations preceeds me!

and....last but not least, when i was in my late teens, one of my best friends was a guy named rick. we were "thicker than thieves" fact, everyone but US thought we would end up married. lol!! anyway, these days he's a funeral director, and his wife is a funeral director as well. i haven't seen rick in a few years, and had never met his wife, but happened to know that she worked at the funeral home we went to today. i actually made it a point to hunt the woman!! i wanted to meet the lady who ended up with one of the loves of my life! she's a nice lady. he had a rough go for a few years, so i'm thrilled that he finally found someone who makes him happy. good on ya, ricky!

the tropical storm in the gulf has caused much needed rain, and not so much needed storms for us day has been cloudy and overcast physically and emotionally, but as always......with every cloud, you can find that silver lining! :)

starlight, starbright

"So when you get knocked down, my sweetheart
Look up to the sky without fear
For sometimes we need to be flat on our backs
Before starlight begins to appear."

-"Keep Love In Your Heart, Little One" by Giles Andreae

a friend shared this with me today, and it completely took my breath away. what a beautiful sentiment, and how wonderful that someone is trying to convey this to kids!! kudos to you, mr andreae!!! i needed the reminder............

Friday, August 22, 2008

perpetual motion, dreams and karma

i AM perpetual motion. always have been. always will be. my first word was "rock" as in...."rock me, mama....i can't sit still!" my rocking chair broke today. GASP! i guess it's a good thing that the next two days are going to be so jam packed with 'motion' that i won't have time to rock anyway. i won't be home long enough to even sleep...or buy a new chair.....or keep up with my internet duties. i'm actually looking forward to monday for a change. and then....i GOTTA get myself a new rocker!!!

in other news: it's been a strange day. dream visitations can really, REALLY wear me out. i'm not sure where they come from, or what they mean, and i'm frankly glad that they don't happen too often as they leave me exhausted. it's not that the 'visitor 'is the contrary... but when the dream is so real you can touch it, it tends to leave me completely drained. i guess i overthink, or more like over-wonder. i can't believe these dreams really mean anything as many say they do, but one can always hope. and wonder. and be exhausted.

lastly: vindication is a beautiful thing, especially when one can feel it without rancor. and vindication is especially beautiful when it occurs on more than one level. i guess there is something to the old adage: i must be living right.
peace, baybees!!!!!