let's do the time warp again!!!

i know i've blogged before about how funny my birds are and how they sing to songs they love!!! just the other nite, watching GLEE, i discovered what is apparently one of geddy's favorite songs! the show was a tribute to THE ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW and the last song was "the time warp." ged went nuts!! don't think i've ever heard him sing as loud or exhuberantly. seems he's a big fan of doing the time warp again. LOL!!!

when we were beautiful:

just watched bon jovi's "when we were beautiful" and had a good cry. thanks to the jovi boys for touching my life once again. how many times have they managed to do it in the past 30 years? :) i lost count 20 years ago.

life isn't easy for me right now..........i am TRULY 'livin' on a prayer' ....and the honesty and candor they showed in the film did me more good than they will ever know! sometimes we find blessings in the oddest of places, altho after all these years, i certainly shouldn't be surprised when bon jovi is the vehicle for one. like i said.....it isn't the first time and i'm quite sure it won't be the last. thank you, LORD, for that gift.

now.....just let me be able to afford to go see them the next time they come to town..........

why can't we walk the talk?

pondering why we as humans are always so willing to believe in others. in my lifetime (which, altho i FEEL really fracking old is REALLY a reasonably short period of time...) i have learned that very few people are truly by your side and 'there for you'.....despite what they may say. we are all full of platitudes and pledges of love and friendship. people claim quickly to be your friend, but how many of us really *show* it? seems to me that the 'proof is in the pudding' and it saddens me to say that i have very, VERY rarely had "friends" who showed the friendship by thier actions when the chips were down and the love was needed the most!

in case anyone reading this gets the wrong idea......i'm not talking about you!!! (smile) the people that were the reason for the blog are some of those who i met thru "GB world" and claimed to be such "good" friends. now that i'm not heavily involved in that community....they can't be bothered to even say 'thank you' when i do them a favor....much less drop me a line every once in awhile just to say "hi." i'm not surprised, as i've learned to expect this from folks, but still.....as i said at the beginning of the blog, we always WANT to believe that people actually mean what they say. i guess if we didn't have that hope in our hearts.....it would be hard to go on from day to day.

anyhow, as for me personally....i'm going to TRY to be more of a friend to those i consider to be my pals. if i fall short.......do me a favor and please TELL ME! i want to walk the talk.........

silver linings.......

ok....so i know that i wanted to lose some of this weight that i've gained since i gave up the smokes, but i didn't REALLY want to get a nasty case of the tummy flu to do it!! i mean, c'mon! was that really necessary??????

whilst we're on the subject of smokes, i gotta say that it's a good thing that i am broke and jobless right now. if i weren't....i'd be picking up the habit again in a heartbeat. i miss it, i've gained so much weight that i can't fit in most of my clothes (and i worked SOOOO hard to lose that weight the first time!), i don't feel better physically, and it hasn't helped with allergy season at all like i had hoped. oh...and did i mention that i MISS IT????????? so i guess it's a good thing that i a dead broke. sigh.

it's a fine line.....

"it's a fine line between love and hate." i never understood that comment in the past. to me....these two would/should be polar opposites........nothing in common but passion. these days i am not only in a position to understand the statement, but to relate so well as to have been able to come up with it on my own!!

love anyway.....................(repeat as mantra over and over and over and over.....)

me, myself and i????

i've been amazed in the last few years to realize just how narcissistic most of our society is. that might not come as a shock to many people, but i honestly thought that most of us cared more for others and thier feelings than we do. i really was shocked at the self absorption level of people in general....and at those in my own life that i have to deal with or have had to deal with. i mean.....think about the "status" thing on facebook and myspace and the general idea of twitter. why have we become so enamored of ourselves that we feel it necessary to let the world know from minute to minute what's on our minds, where we are and what we're doing? did it ever occur to ANY of us that in the general scheme of things....it ain't ABOUT us????? just boggles my mind, but maybe *i'm* the one who is misguided since i seem to be in the minority of folks who just doesn't "get" it........

and on a personal level......i get amazed at how easy it is for some people to "use" others. it's ok to ask me for a favor when you need one, but then i don't exist in the next moment when said favor is done. this used to make me angry, but no more. i just feel sad for people who are like this. how miserable you must be inside. i hope you can find your peace. and as for myself.........i've distanced myself from your crowd anyway. i don't need all the things that your kind bring into my life. i realized this so very long ago, and only recently worked up the courage to do something about it.

now....if i could find a way to change the MOST self absorbed person i know...maybe my life could get back on track. that will take lots of prayer, tho...and so far, HE isn't listening.......

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i miss me. i hope i come home soon.............