for good..........

it's not often in our lives that we meet people who change us drastically and irrevocably. happy birthday to one of the few people in my life who completely changed me.

(why is it that my life seems to be so tied up with scorpios, anyway??)

I've heard it said

That people come into our lives for a reason

Bringing something we must learn

And we are led

To those who help us most to grow

If we let them

And we help them in return

Well, I don't know if I believe that's true

But I know I'm who I am today

Because I knew you

Like a comet pulled from orbit

As it passes a sun

Like a stream that meets a boulder

Halfway through the wood

Who can say if I've been changed for the better?

But because I knew you

I have been changed for good

It well may beThat we will never meet again

In this lifetime

So let me say before we part

So much of me

Is made of what I learned from you

You'll be with me

Like a handprint on my heart

And now whatever way our stories end

I know you have re-written mine

By being my friend...

Like a ship blown from its mooring

By a wind off the sea

Like a seed dropped by a skybird

In a distant wood

Who can say if I've been changed for the better?

But because I knew you

I have been changed for good

(thanks to stephen schwartz and WICKED for the lyrics!)

good things come to those who wait

because it's "that time of year".....fall allergies and the heat is on.....i have a raging headache and just don't have what it takes to write a proper blog and to say all that i could and *should* say about my trip to chattanooga over the weekend to see the edgar winter band. then again....maybe not much really needs to be said. all you really need to know is that i've been a fan since i was a young teen, and have had a working relationship with edgar for 2-3 years, so the fact that i finally got to meet him face to face was just beyond wonderful. he's as gracious and kind in person as i expected, and i got the extra treat of the fact that all his band members and crew are just as gracious and kind as he! we had some snafus in our weekend trip, but everything worked for the best and i'm so thankful that i had the opportunity to make the trip and meet everyone! i feel very blessed.......no! i AM very blessed! :)

it's official...........

i have become invisible.

lessons learned.....

we live to learn and learn to live, i guess.

my own problem is that i learn my lessons and forget them all too quickly.

i've learned that i should keep most of what i feel to myself. things that matter to *me* don't necessarily matter to anyone else nor should they, and i should remember that, and not try to project my angst or anger on others.

i've learned that i hate, hate, HATE dealing with any fans, any time, any where. i should never, ever do this.

i've learned that life is too short to stress over things that you have no control over and that we should all relax more and not worry about silly things.

i've learned that i shouldn't really try to express what i am REALLY feeling in a blog, because it never seems to work out.

i've learned all these things.....sometimes i've learned them over and over again. but do i REMEMBER what i've learned?

um. that would be no.

i guess the main thing that i've learned is that i never learn.

what *was* going on????

in berry gordy's head. i always rather figured that the head of motown records was a bit of a visionary genius, but i just read this:

"'What's Going On' just sat on the shelves. Berry Gordy didn't like it; he thought Marvin should just stay with the beautiful ballads. Then someone that worked at Motown heard it and told Berry, 'This is a smash, man,' and so ultimately Berry released it, and it went through the roof." --Otis Williams of the Temptations


what the????? how could ANYONE hear that song and not realize that it has to be one of the best songs ever written???? that little tidbit from mr williams just amazed me!!

Oh, you know we've got to find a way
To bring some understanding here today
Oh Picket lines and picket signs
Don't punish me with brutality
Talk to me
So you can see
What's going on......

my first love....

just finished reading pamela des barre's "let's spend the night together" which is basically a bunch of groupies glorifying and justifying the lifestyle...lol!! found this lovely poem in the chapter dedicated to gayle o'connor, tho, and i just HAD to post it as it fits me to a tee!!! not sure if ms o'connor wrote the poem herself or not, but she said she had it on her mirror when she was growing up:

music is my first love

it will be my last

music of the future

music of the past

to live without my music

would be impossible to do

in this world of troubles

my music pulls me through.

play on, stevie ray.......

hard to believe it's been almost 20 years since we lost him!!

Oo oo now baby....tell me how have you been

We all have missed you....and the way you grin

The day is necessary....every now and then

For souls to move on....givin life back again, and again

Fly on fly on....fly on my friend

Go on....live again....love again

Day after day....night after night

Sittin here singin every minute....

as the years go passing by....by, by, by

Long look in the mirror....weve come face to face

Wishin all the love we took for granted....love we have today

Life without you....all the love you passed my way

The angels have waited for so long....now they have their way

Take your place....